Week 4 – 4.29.18 – 5.5.18

Training

*The schedule I post on a weekly basis is what I originally planned to do last week.

Two things this week: Missed a few sessions, and too ambitious.

I missed a few sessions here and there because of pole dancing timing. As discussed in my previous post, I could not plan my classes in advance. You can only book classes four days in advance and even then, some classes are not always available. Also, the classes are constantly late evenings, but not late enough for me to have a workout beforehand. Just an odd in-between, even location-wise. I decided to just not use the remaining credits or use it on rest days. I know it sounds privileged but if I’m going and not enjoying it, is it really worth spending time on it? It could be used towards training and building a routine. That to me is the biggest waste. Time is finite.

Second, I started out too ambitious with too much planned volume. Have to taper into high volume training or else you will experience fatigue and loss of motivation. Feel like a failure when I didn’t finish a workout and skipped a day. Will go for another round of Week 4’s schedule with slight adjustments.


Nutrition

Even when I increased the training volume slightly, I get pangs of hunger frequently. This week, I really loaded in on the snacks and volume in my lunch. It did not feel comfortable at all, especially when sitting in the office. The bloat was real.

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It got me curious as to how much I was actually eating in a day and how much it was attributed to snacks. My worst day was shy of 3,000 calories. THREE. THOUSAND. Half came from grazing on snack. I appreciate the insight that MyFitnessPal gave me, going to try using it on a day-to-day basis.

Going 100% with 65%

Since dislocating and breaking my ankle, I wanted to write a post about my recovery journey but couldn’t find the right words to describe it until today.

Every time I train, it didn’t feel like I pushed myself where my face would be flushed, sweat trickling down or doing the weights/reps/sets that I know I want to push myself towards. It feels like I didn’t work hard enough because I wasn’t performing to the intensity I use to train to.

But it hit me. I had to be kind to myself, because I WAS pushing myself. I am only 65% of what I use to be. But I am putting 100% effort of that percentage into training and getting better.

Yes, I am not progressing as fast as I want to in order get back to normal. In fact, some days feel like I am going backwards. It’s incredibly frustrating and hard to restrain yourself from going too hard for risk of reinjury.

I need to understand that I am only 65% of what I use to be but it does not mean I can’t put or am not putting 100% of it into getting better and stronger each day. Training focus may be different, but intention remains the same – being the best version of myself.